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Sunday, April 15, 2018

A Broody Break

If you follow this blog, you may have noticed a long gap of silence. Perhaps you've missed the chatter. Perhaps you've been enjoying the sudden quiet. In any case, I just wanted to say that 1) I'm not dead, but 2) I've decided to take a year off from beekeeping and this blog.

Actually, I don't even have bees right now. In his talk at our bee club, Dr. Sharashkin mentioned how timing splits is really important. If they split at or after the peak of the flow, they will eat up all their spring reserves. Well, I experienced this first-hand last year. Unfortunately, I also didn't do anything to stop or manage the situation. In fact, I lost interest in just about everything and quit all my volunteer activities and other non-bee hobbies. And the bees... I pretty much stopped doing anything with the bees past last July. I didn't inspect. Didn't feed. Didn't winterize. Didn't even add mouseguards. The bees didn't really have a chance.

For months, I've been hoping to finally turn the corner mentally, thinking I'd perk up again when the days started getting longer, or when spring came around, or when we found a new house (oh, yeah, I forgot to mention that we're in the process of moving to Pennsylvania), or when this or that happened. But the truth is that it just hasn't happened yet. At the risk of sharing TMI, the last 9 months have been a small roller coaster for me (by my first-world-problem standards), except there haven't been any uphills on this coaster. It's all been down.

You can criticize me for being an irresponsible beekeeper or even a terrible person if you want. Neglect (even of what I consider essentially wild animals) isn't really something I'm proud of either. However, I've discovered that there is a corollary to Woody Allen's assertion that "The heart wants what it wants." Sometimes, the heart just doesn't want what it doesn't want. That's not an excuse for my bad behavior, but it is an explanation.

From time to time, if I see something really interesting, I may post. However, for the most part, I plan to indulge in a brood-y break while I clear my head.




13 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing Julie, i'ved missed your posts in my feed but there are much more important things than blogs or beekeeping. Be well. Sending you best wishes.

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    1. Thanks so much for having been along for the ride and for those kind words. I appreciate them! :-)

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  2. I wondered where you've been. I have enjoyed your blog and did look forward to it but it is more important that you take care of yourself first. Brood breaks are good for everyone :)

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    1. Hi, Trudy! Hope you are well! Thanks for the kind words and good advice. Brood breaks are a good thing -- such a good lesson from the bees!

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  3. Thanks for your update, Julie. I'll miss your informative and amusing posts, but as others have mentioned, taking care of yourself is your most important task. Don't feel like you have failed the bees - if they cast swarms, they may still be out there somewhere. I hope things turn upward for you soon!

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    1. Aww, thanks, Don. I appreciate that. Over the last few years, I've given lots and lots of bees away, so the Farmington Valley is probably full of my great great grandbabees. ;-)

      I know that things will turn around, but until next spring, I'm just going to focus on me. Will still be looking forward to your posts, though!

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  4. Take care of yourself, Julie. We'll be thinking of you.

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    1. Thanks, Erik! Will be back next spring. :-)

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  5. No need to self-flagellate! Everyone needs a break every now and again ...

    I'm sorry you're going through this. But you should know that you're not alone. It's bad form, i'm sure, to bring politics into it, but i haven't felt right since the "election" over a year ago. And i've been so distracted (depressed?) that it's hard to put one foot in front of the other some days ...

    And you're moving as well! So you have enough, more than enough to deal with.

    One of the things we can count on is that everything changes. It won't be long before you get yourself whole. Remember how you pieced together that beehive after the bare attack? You'll get yourself whole again, one comb at a time ...

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    1. bear ... i meant to type bear, i swear! :)

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    2. LOL! As far as I know, it was a bare bear. hee hee

      Oh, goodness, the news is so depressing these days, just skimming the headlines is enough to make one sick. But you're right. We have to keep on keeping on, although I do have fantasies about starting my own good news channel full of positive stories.

      Thanks so much for that encouragement. I do have plans to start again next spring after all the dust has died down. :-)

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  6. It's good to read a post of yours again...I have been missing them. I do understand the struggle to turn a corner mentally. Within the last year I have lost my bee hive,broken 3 bones, buried my father, buried an uncle, tried to build a new house (5 months behind with this one), prepare my father's farm for an estate sale, and try to be a good mom who is involved. Sometimes the rollercoaster just has a farther drop than we thought possible but please hang in there....with a little time and patience we can all find our light again.

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    1. I'm sorry to hear that you've had a rough year, too. It seems like when it rains it pours. I hope the sun comes out soon for you as well.

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